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i have only one little sister n 2 little brothers.
my little baby sister.. now she’s 14. she’s pretty, tau!
adik was born when i was 9. she was the sister that i always dream off. coz, when at school, my friend has a younger sister, and they were very close. so i always tell mak n ayah to give me a younger sister too.. i dont mind not being the youngest girl. i just want a bestfriend, ie; adik perempuan.
so, mak n ayah let me have my adik, n i told them to name her Sajidah too..
n we call her MaMa. coz people call me NaNa. haha. its like i want her to be my twin. when my sister started to walk, i always bring her jalan2 to kedai and even when i went to play with my friends. i am always proud of her, everywhere she goes people will say how comel she is and there are makcik who called her ‘comel’ n she’s manja too.. she knows how to attract people attention and good at layan-ing makcik2 tu.
but, as she grows up she started to rebut my place at ayah’s lap.
n i started to be jealous. there was like a rival between us to get ayah. =(
but it wasn’t teruk sangat pun, coz i always love her. n we share la.. and anywhere we go, people will say we are cikgu zaimi’s most manja girls!hehe..

why am talking about my adik? coz im missing her.. i feel like hugging her and tell her how much i love her, and that i will always be by her side. i know this few years since ayah pass away, she is not the manja girl she used to be. her heart is hardened, n closed. i really don’t know what’s going on in her my mind.. she was so young when we lost our ayah, n i know she felt the same as i am, but whe wont be able to accept it like i am, but i pray that she will always be strong. happy and she will realized that we love her as much as ayah loves her.
love u, adik…

hello!!! (gediks voice)
i am currently posted in family medicine. today is the second day, so u dont have to wonder la why i keep on updating. coz, this posting a bit relax compare to other posting. and this afternoon i met adi (my sem9 senior) who said "bestnyer korang sem8!!!" yayayaya… agak best la!! hehe…
namun begitu, i should not jadi leka and lalai and waste my time on kerja2 lagho ni. huhu..
yes, im trying la to concentrate. im actually reading management of diabetes, and looking for the best way to memorize the drugs and doses.
for my fellow medical students colleagues, have a look at American Diabetic Association. It is the source for our Malaysian Clinical Practice Guidelines.
Have fun studying, k!! =) Focus!!

titi…
aku mmg tengah rajin update blog skrg. n thanx for reading. Muahs!! Hugs n kisses for u!! ;D
aku doakan ko nyer exam cvs respi pass n ade flying colours. if not, u will be missing me much2 more. owh, there’s no no. u will pass!!
u know i plan to go ur house kan? then kite jalan2 tepi pantai n makan seafood byk2 sampai cholesterol level kite exceed normal range. pastu kalo duit elaun ade byk lagi, bole shopping tudung bawal. why la me never hav enuff of those tudung bawal? huhu..
paper la…
pastu me n wan oso plan to go penang… amir will be our tour guide! =) pastu from penang we go langkawi jln2 beli coklat. owh, ni tambah my spare tyres. hoho. n i cant wait nak naik cable car, n visit that place shah rukh khan berlakun citer donn…
yeay2!!
hati aku melonjak-lonjak keriangan! =)
plez.. plez.. do come back, k!

my presentation was ok. i know prof harwant sgt suka x-ray. so, when i put many good x-rays, of course la he likes it. dont hav to say too much, he will explain. gooooood…
thanx to website uni of washington. the x-rays are real n really illustrate what me n my groupmates need to see.
today we also had a case presentation (its an everyday routine actually).
i summarized one of the case td ek..

58 year old Malay man, gardener, who was previously well, complained of pain at the right hip region after a trivial wall. The pain was progressive, and worst at night. He had lost of appetite, lost of weight and reduce effort tolerant.
Plain radiograph show diffuse osteopenia at the right hip and fracture neck of femur. He also had lytic lesion at the lumbar vertebrae.
Now, patient is having pain all over the body.
The systemic review show no other abnormality except for bloating and tenesmus.
But on colonoscopy, no growth in the colorectal region.

Diagnosis?
Prof Harwant said its chondrosarcoma, base on the radiograph feature. (sbb ade diffuse lytic lesion, n some calcifications)
But maybe, metastatic from other places. (if metastatic, there will be moth eaten appearance, and it wont be that diffuse)
lagipon, they could not find any primary lesion.

sepatutnyer, patient tu dah di-treated earlier, by total hip arthroplasty. but, maybe they didnt think its chondrosarcoma. but prof said, even it wasnt it, still the hip replacement will help the patient, in sense that there will be no more pain there, n the patient can have a better life instead of lying on the bed and waiting for death.

think of it, if u have cancer, kan, n ur time left in the world is only around 5 months, dont u wanna spend it on something beneficial and lead the best life u could ever had? 

we should put ourselves in the patient’s situation, then only can we give them best treatment. n that’s what we call EMPATHY.

hmm..

yo! its actually topic for my presentation esok. i have to prepare powerpoint, radiograph findings in osteopenia n osteosclerosis. huh. dont know how to tell, but from the x-ray, i think u can see, that for osteopenia, of course the bones are less, so it appear more radiolucent (black) n for osteosclerosis, there is increase in the bone density, so it become more radioopaque(white).
so, wut i should write in my presentation? hmm.. i just put the x-ray photos… as many as i can, then write the descriptions.
if u guys wanna see the photos, n descriptions and also differential diagnosis, can visit this;
https://www.rad.washington.edu/academics/academic-sections/msk

n, there is this one website where u can find free books for orthopaedics;
www.worldortho.com

currently enjoying ortho! have fun!

Its nearly two years now.. living this life without you. loving, caring, protective u… u noe, no one in this world could ever replace u. u r the best.
im all alone now.. dont have ur shoulder to rest my head on when im sad. i cant hug u anymore. no one to fight with and sulking on anymore. no one to turn to.
im missing u. hopeless me..
I noe u r there, plez pray for me, so i would always be strong and brave.

love u, ayah… Al-Fatihah…

a minor emotional trauma might cause an exaggerated emotional response.
Diagnosis? PMS!!

what would u feel knowing that someone hates u? really really hates you? but u guys would see each other like everyday, n even your shadow would cause intense pain of hatred in that person’s small heart?
there’s a stabbing, throbbing, sharp, burning aching pain in my heart.
who cares?
i care!

sebab esok hari besar for Malaysia, aku pon cam xtido lg. pelik ni, nana..
tho i think we all know tomorrow’s result. takyah la nak buat iklan byk2 kat tv n radio. abis satu roundabout jd tempat letak poster. the government mesti menang, but maybe… maybe la.. setelah mendengar beberapa org yg lebih dewasa berkata. majoriti mesti kurang tahun ni. which is good la. satu tanda untuk kerajaan untuk improvise. right?
hmm… actually nak meluahkan perasaan.
few days ago, i went to follow the psychiatric team went for community visit. i was with my 3 other groupmates. n im the only one yg ade extra melanin pigment. bukan sebab they all use Olay total effect or Ponds. ala. u know why la, kan.
kerajaan claimed that rakyat Malaysia bersatu padu. kite ni bangsa Malaysia, xde dah bangse yg xde melanin. kurang melanin atau over melanin.
tp, sumhow everywords talk in the car, langsung x menggambarkan kite faham each other. diorg cakap bahase diorang. aku cakap bahasa aku (of course la ckp sesorg dlm minda aku jer)
hati sangat lar membara mase tu. tapi since dah one year this has been happening, i juz ignore la. malas nak ckp dah "can u guys plez talk in english?" ckp pon tak gune.

maybe this is one of the reasons kite patut pertahankan bangsa keturunan kite. when they all got it, we will just be forgotten.

tapi, ni x bermakna kite xleh hidup bersatu padu n amalkan tolak ansur.. ade byk lg people yg ‘less melanin pigmented’ yang sometimes better than us. . kan?

esok ari mengundi! selamat mengundi kepada seluruh rakyat Malaysia.
ceh. beria aku ucap selamat mengundi. padahal aku daftar pon x lagi. owh, dont start berleter kat aku. aku dah dengar dah. aku dah insaf dah. dgn ini, sajidahyusrina bimti zaimi, berikrar akan mendaftar mengundi pada masa hadapan. hehe. mengundi (memilih pemimpin) tu kewajipan kite kat dunia. so, kalo kite tak buat, nnt kite akan di tanya di Akhirat nnt. (ni wan bitau aku)
then, aku tanye abg nusi (my bro in law).. wut if dua2 calon tu x sesuai jd pemimpin. u know la org politik skrg kan?
abg nusi pon ckp.. we still hav to vote, means choose la. kite kene pilih la antara dua tu, yg mane satu bole memimpin kite, dan yg bole memelihara agama dan bangsa kite. walaupon sesetengah mereka x jge pon 2 bende ni. so, kewajipan kite mesti la dijalankan.
cume, before u all prgi memangkah dacing or bulan esok, i want to quote prof harwant nyer ayat siang td. "sharpen ur mind!". pastu mst bole buat pilihan yg tepat. =)

daaa…